And yet, I'm still a little stunned at how avidly A/M gets read in comparison. In 24 hours, that 1k ficlet I wrote has more hits than the last eight stories I posted combined. And more kudos than the last nine. The numbers are mostly the same as other A/M stories in this week's collection, so it's not like it's anything special, except that it's fun and a little sexy. I like it a lot. I wouldn't have written it otherwise.
Here's my dilemma. And if this makes me sound superficial, well, I can't help that. I can count on one hand how many times a year I choose to write about Arthur/Merlin. I'll be the first to admit my brain goes straight to Percival first almost any time I'm considering a prompt. (The gentle giant is one of my major kinks, both in fic and in genre fiction. I'll own that.) But seeing all those kudos was *really* nice. I've missed that. A lot. It's the biggest reason I probably won't ever leave fic behind because the romance world isn't nearly as immediate in regards to positive feedback. And the ficlet really is a great set-up for something longer. I don't think it would be hard to keep going.
But...it feels like selling out. Writing for the market. I've resisted that in my original stuff (much to Craig's chagrin) because it makes me feel like a hypocrite. Is that all in my head? Am I just thinking too much, lol?