Eurydice (eurydice72) wrote,

So. Trying to break out of my funk this evening. I recognize now that I was triggered in about a million different ways over the past 24 hours, which is never good. Recognizing them and confronting them helps take away their power, usually, or at the very least, weakens them so I can struggle back to the surface. It's never fun, though, is it?

I tried distracting myself as much as I could. I bought shoes, these and these. To make up for that, I finally tackled my overflowing shoe corner in the closet and got rid of 10 pairs in one way or another. I also did some Christmas shopping, which always makes me happy.

Did it all work? To some degree, I guess.

I've been debating seasonal_spuffy. I haven't done it in years. I haven't written Spuffy in years. But I've recently reread two of my stories, and I've been watching the show again with my friend L...and I miss them. The problem is, I know I don't have the time. And did I mention I haven't done it in years? It's been even longer since I read any. I'm terrified about not being able to produce anything worthwhile. I probably won't end up following through--I know how I can talk myself out of these things--but I do fantasize about doing it. *sigh*
Tags: life, shoes, spuffy
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