Eurydice (eurydice72) wrote,

In everything after my MIL's passing, one of the things I've done is sit down and create a list of goals for myself. I'm good at lists. I find comfort in the order.

On the personal list is an item that says, "Call and talk to a family member at least once a month," referring to someone on my side of the family, not Craig's.

I'm not kidding about that one.

Because I don't. I haven't spoken to a member of my family outside of a facebook message since April when my baby sister called me. I suck at it. We're all scattered to the four winds, and even when there isn't drama in my life, I've always found it difficult to remember to keep in touch. It's exacerbated by the fact that they're the same way.

Losing my MIL has made me want to change this, hence the item on my goal list. So the other day, I texted my baby sister and asked for the number to get hold of Mom. *That's* how bad it was, lol.

Mom called me last night, probably because baby sis mentioned I'd asked for the number, but I missed it, so I tried her back this morning. We spent 40 minutes chatting, getting caught up, that kind of thing. And it didn't suck. My mom isn't the most communicative person at the best of times, and the fact that we don't really have a lot in common doesn't help, but we managed just fine this morning. Plus, I discovered more family history about the arthritis issues, and hearing how prevalent it is--and knowing just how active certain members of the family are with it--makes bearing mine out that much easier.

My motto the past couple weeks has been, "I might only be taking baby steps, but they're all forward, so that's all that matters." And I'm sticking by that. :)
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