I've been thinking about this one all day. The easy answer seems to be that I would most regret my first marriage. I mean, it was hugely destructive. Between the time we dated and the length of our marriage, I was with him for five years. That's a lot of time to have my identity stripped away. But you know what? I really don't think I would've met Craig if I hadn't been at such a low point in my marriage. I would never have been driven to try and talk to people online because I might have actually had friends (I was allowed to have *his* friends, I had no money of my own except what I earned babysitting one of my professor's kids, etc.). So how can I regret the thing that gave me the most important thing to ever happen to me in my life?
Simple answer. I just can't.
So barring all the really crappy decisions that got me stuck in that relationship in the first place, I'd have to say the one regret that sticks out is the way I sabotaged my relationship with my brother when we were in our early 20s. We were - and still are - polar opposites in our beliefs. I'm a raging liberal, he thought Rush Limbaugh was god. He was also the most stubborn person I'd ever known. He would argue with you incessantly, refusing to acknowledge proof that he might be wrong even if all he had to do was turn his head and see it. He drove me insane, and as a result, my attitude toward him grew increasingly acerbic. It didn't help my mom and my sister thought it was funny. That only fueled me further. It escalated to the point where we had a blowout, and then...nothing.
We didn't talk to each other for fifteen years. Not until he called me out of the blue when Mom was so sick.
I regret that. I was unnecessarily mean to him, in attempts to be humorous and fight off the irritation he provoked in me. I wish I hadn't gone that far.
The meme's days:
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – A first, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail
