Eurydice (eurydice72) wrote,
Eurydice
eurydice72

I'm exhausted. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I've spent more time in the past two days reliving memories I'm not sure needed to be relived, more time crying, more time doing a lot of things than I've done in absolute ages. I'm currently ensconced in the hotel by the Detroit airport, and will be on a 7am flight tomorrow morning with Craig and the kids to go home. I just...

I'm at a loss. I'm drained. I feel utterly drained. I'm sure it's just a reaction to the funeral, to the reality of this powerhouse of a woman being gone, to the acknowledgment that she's finally where she wanted to be for the past 40 years - back at my grandfather's side, to so very much. And I don't get to slow down. I can't. I have my own life to live, and my own responsibilities, and being reminded today of just how much my grandmother was always doing and did all the way until her death, just makes me feel guilty that I'm even feeling tired in the first place.

I'm not making sense at all, I know. I've just been bottling so much up the past few days and don't have my usual venting places. Ignore the crazy woman. Hopefully all will be well when I return home tomorrow.
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