Eurydice (eurydice72) wrote,
Eurydice
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Staying busy to not think about Craig being gone only works during the day apparently. I got a ton of stuff done today - wrote another chapter of my book, read 2 books for my EPPIE judging, the LLGA stuff - but half an hour after the kids have gone to bed, I'm all blue and missing Craig and getting nothing accomplished. I'm pms-ing in huge ways, I know. I know, because my weight spiked this morning for no reason, which does absolutely nothing to help my mood because then I start thinking that the whole WW thing is a waste of time and why am I bothering and...blech.

I suck at being alone.

It's not even that I haven't talked to him since he left. He's called twice already. I'm just sad, I guess, lol. My house is big and empty, and I start thinking about going to bed, and how it'll be just me, and it's a vicious cycle that does me no good, I know. It makes me short with the kids, and when they're already cranky for the same reasons I am, that doesn't do anybody any good.

OK, stopping now. I'm not doing myself any good. Maybe I'll start another of the books I need to read.
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