Craig left this morning. 4am. After only getting 4 hours sleep. I won't see him again until February 7. I'm trying to go on like everything is normal, but it's going to be tough. Alicia's already had one crying jag, and I'm sure there will be more to come. Meanwhile, I'm trying not to stare at my clock and wonder how lonely I'm going to be from the hours of 8-12 when he and I usually get our alone time.
I'm touchy as a result. Little things are setting me off. Alex refused to eat supper and is complaining about being hungry, but I refuse to fix him a second dinner when he picked out the first one. Random comments are annoying the fuck out of me when I know they shouldn't, and I'm having to self-edit a lot in order not to lose any friends. So my apologies to everyone here and now. Excuse the jumpy woman in the corner. She really doesn't mean to bite your head off.
On the plus side, I got an e-mail from Phaze Publishing saying that my short story/novella has passed the first round of their review process. According to their FAQ, it was read and reviewed by at least 2 editors, and based on their recommendations it's now been bumped up to the next step. I'd like to think they weed out much of the sludge with the first round of reviews. Fingers crossed they actually want it now. :)
I have a few more comments to respond to on the Echoes chapter, but I'll likely do that in the morning. I'm going to try and focus on writing the next one tonight. If I can immerse myself, maybe I won't think too much about Craig not being here.
I just have to be the one to die first in this relationship. I don't even want to think about how crazy I would be if I outlived him. :P