He keeps sending me IM's. Not instigating chats, though we've had plenty of those. But I'll walk away from my laptop to do something and come back to find little snippets waiting for me. Like...
"I dreamt of your neck last night."
"It is very lonely in a bed without you."
"I miss the feel of your skin."
And my personal favorite...
"Make sure you take the chocolate sauce out of the fridge on Tuesday so it has time to warm up."
And here I am, trying not to focus on the fact that he's not here. I do just fine, and then bam! I get knocked right in the...well, you get the idea. ;)
I feel silly a lot of the time when it comes to me and Craig. I know what we have is pretty special, but sometimes, when I see other couples who've been together the same amount of time we have, I wonder if I'm being inappropriate. I love Craig to death. I have no shame in showing him that in public. Craig and I are both very tactile people, and we don't think there's anything wrong with displaying affection openly. We certainly don't hide things like kissing from the kids. Alicia and Alex see us cuddling all the time. And yet, when I see some of the other people in very similar circumstances to ours, I can't help but wonder. Why is it that people, parents especially, seem embarrassed about expressing their feelings for each other openly?
I'm trying to get Craig to bring the kids to Sacramento for a day or two next weekend. Not for the con, but just to get away and so that I can see them in between stuff. I fly to Toronto the following week to see rockgoddes and to go to Toronto Trek, so it's going to be even longer before Craig and I are able to get back into our comfort zone of the other one being around. I just miss him. I want him around.
And I'm not embarrassed to show that. :)