March 26th, 2021

books - reading dreaming: coloryourdream

Obsession is a good distraction

I can't get one of the books I'm reading - Ghost Planet - out of my head. I dreamed about it last night, I keep finding excuses to pick it up and read a couple more pages, I'm thinking about it at random times throughout the day. I don't know what it is about it, other than it's fascinating and insanely readable. I'm almost halfway through, and the romance is still pretty bare bones. It's mostly about the world she's created and the heroine I adore.

Maybe I'm obsessing over it because I've been in such a funk. I'm frustrated at work because it feels like I'm spending half my time correcting work others screw up. I'm trying not to be a nag about it, but it's getting worse and we re-open in a month. I'm starting to think maybe I don't want to stay on since I'm only there because I love the library. Every shift feels like another reminder that I'm insanely overly qualified for the job I have, but there's no opportunity to move up because the lockdown screwed over staffing growth. Everybody has had to cut back.

It would be so much easier if I didn't care so much.