November 26th, 2020

mood - one of those days (merlin): batgu

I don't want to be sad, but it is what it is

I'm blue. Even though I knew this year was going to be necessarily different, and even though everything turned out great for dinner, I find myself all out of sorts and more than a little blue, and I can only credit it to the fact that it was so different. Since 2005, we have spent Thanksgiving with another family, people I love like my own. It's a four-day event. We start the spreadsheet with the planning in October. There's food and games and so many people in the house that it's never quiet and wine and laughter and...this year, none of that. For obvious and good reasons, which I'm in full support of. But Alicia had a paper due today (that she only got the stuff for last Friday), so she spent a good chunk of her day holed up working on that. Craig and I watched a movie and finished The Boys after we ate. And I did a little bit of online shopping. But that's it. And it's so much, and I realize that, but...I'm still sad.

I have a ton of work to do and couldn't find any energy to touch any of it. Which is only going to stress me out in the days to come since I work tomorrow.

Hopefully, this will pass.

I hope all my American friends had as good a Thanksgiving as they could have. I'm grateful for all you.