November 11th, 2020

btvs - spuffy his sunrise: elizalavelle

Lost in Anxiety

Well. I've been gone for a week because this election has pretty much left me a mess. My anxiety has been through the roof, in spite of Biden's win, because I don't trust Trump, I don't trust the Republicans who are enabling him, and I don't trust his supporters. On top of that, the covid spikes are scary as hell, though not quite as bad here in California as it is in other states. I'm not even sure how I've functioned as well as I have.

It started last Thursday morning. A man in town with a ton of Trump posters all over his yard and house decided to hang a body from his roof with a sign on it that said "Sleepy Joe." Someone saw it and reported it to the police who didn't do anything about it until another couple dozen complaints came in. They made an announcement that it wasn't a hate crime but that they would talk to the guy. They were able to talk the guy into letting them take it down that afternoon. However, the damage had been done. People were on the street protesting. We're about 60/40 (blue/red) in our small community, and it tends to be pretty quiet. When the police protests were happening last June, our police took a knee with the protesters. But Thursday got ugly. Trump supporters started showing up. By Friday afternoon, there was a line of police in front of the house because a Biden supporter had spray painted the guy's house and vandalized his car overnight. On Friday night, a Trump supporter drove down the street brandishing a gun. Nobody got hurt, but I don't think he got arrested even though he scared the crap out of a lot of people.

So that shook me up. And then all of Trump's stuff over the weekend, with Barr's announcement on Monday, did a lot more damage. I'm doing better today only because of how many of Trump's cases have been thrown out of court for lack of evidence. But it's still scary. The longer this goes on, the more I fear what the backlash will be. Or if he manages to pull a rabbit out of his hat at the last minute, which will just make it worse.


I can't stop thinking about it.

Then there's the fact that covid is rising so drastically in parts of our country. Like Michigan where my mom is isolated. She is starting to panic about the stupidity surrounding her, and I can't blame her. She tries to cover it up with, "Well, if I get sick, oh well." But I can tell she's scared.

I did manage to get my first entry up for seasonal_spuffy yesterday, though. I'm signed up for two days, and this first one is a two-part, post-Chosen story called A Fairy Tale, They Say. I'm rather pleased with how it turned out.

I'm way behind on other people's posts and the meme. I'm going to look at posts tonight and hopefully get caught up on the meme tomorrow.