May 27th, 2020

mood - woe: crackers4jenn

What an awful day

My ovarian pain was so bad today, I called the Teladoc. Mostly because I'm freaking out about it lasting this long. He basically said get an ultrasound ASAP, so I'm going to see how I feel in the morning. If the pain is still bad, I'll call my doctor after lunch. I can't call before that. I have a library meeting at 10:30. In the meantime, I'll suck down acetaminophen.

The meeting is freaking me out, too. The manager called it, and it's just with the aides. Part of me is convinced we're all about to be laid off because we're low men on the totem pole. The possibility of not working at the library just fills me with such sadness. Alicia got on my case about worrying about something I don't even know will happen, and while she's right, I'm still freaked out. Between the pain and the uncertainty about what the meeting is about, my entire mental state has been a wreck all day.