May 2nd, 2020

mood - woe: crackers4jenn

People suck

I haven't had the mindset to post the last couple of days. It's been a terrible week for my mood. There has been more than one crying jag in my bedroom where the kids can't witness it because I've been bombarded by too much proof that too many people are just awful and selfish. It culminated on Thursday with the news that the building commissioner in the neighboring town posted the following:

"We have our old, we have our weak and we have our drains on our resources. This virus is targeting those sectors of our population. If we were to live our lives, let nature run its course, yes we will all feel hardship, we will all feel loss. I am sure everyone of us would lose a person who we hold dear. But as species, for our Nation and as a Planet we would we would strengthen when this is all settled. We would have significant loss of life, we would lose many elderly, that would reduce burdens in our defunct Social Security System, health care cost (once the wave subsided), make jobs available for others and it would also free up housing in which we are in dire need of. We would lose a large portion of the people with immune and other health complications. I know it would be loved ones as well. But that would once again reduce our impact on medical, jobs and housing. Then we have our other sectors such as our homeless and other people who just defile themselves by either choice or mental issues. This would run rampant through them and yes i am sorry but this would fix what is a significant burden on our Society and resources that can be used."

I avoided most of being online Friday to deliver goodies to my adopted seniors and then spend time with my family, but I discovered this morning that the city council had a special meeting last night and (in my opinion, rightfully) removed the man from his office. He hasn't once apologized. He says he did nothing wrong, since he was just expressing his opinion. But at a time when people need hope, he wants to re-open everything and let the virus wipe out whoever it wants. His callous disregard for life absolutely sickens me, but it's all indicative of what I kept seeing this week.

I'm a little better tonight. Not a lot. Part of what kept setting me off this week was hormones. I'm well aware of that. I'm hoping I'm coming out of the other side of this.