March 21st, 2020

eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

A long day

We had to leave the house today. I bundled as many errands into that trip as possible because I do not want to have to move my car or be in the vicinity of a person I don't live with or be in an environment I can't control for least a week. And if I can manage two, even better.

Paranoid, yes. I'm beyond caring at this point. I'm focusing on me and my family and what I can control, because I've decided there are too many idiots out there who are determined to screw this up for all of us.

It was a long day. I'm a little cranky. I think the cold I thought I'd beaten is edging its way back, on top of everything else. So I will head off to bed and start over again in the morning.

Because I can. And I'm very grateful for that.
tv - pretty (wes/fred): behindblue_eyes

Reality TV to escape the reality of the world

Today was a reality TV watching day for the most part. I had new Drag Race, Top Chef, and Food Truck Race on the DVR, so I decided to be a lump for the first time all week and just enjoy. It was nice, actually, and made me realize I've been reading way too much news lately. It's hard not to devour everything I can find on the virus updates. It feels too important not to be informed. But I have to figure out how to balance that out with my need to stay as mentally stable as I can. It's too easy to find triggers for my anxiety, and logic doesn't work on my brain once a trigger has been activated.

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I might've squee'd a little when I saw that Bryan Voltaggio is on the current season of Top Chef. He's always been one of my favorites. His season was the one where I first started watching, and I've never been happy that he didn't win.