January 29th, 2019

mood - this sucks: sandy_s

Sometimes I hate the world

Today was an adrenaline crash from the past few days. Feelings about being discombobulated and living in limbo as I waited to hear back from my cast so I can make a definitive rehearsal schedule. I tried crocheting to knock me out of it, but that didn't work. Catching up on TV just gave me a headache. I still have to clean my kitchen before I go to bed, but I don't imagine that's going to help much either. It's just one of those days, I guess.

Alicia called me this morning to give me a heads up about her plans to wait out the snow and cold weather in DC. I'm actually more worried about family back in Michigan. The forecast there looks horrific. And of course, seeing Trump's tweets this morning reflecting his ignorance about climate change didn't help my mood either.

Maybe it's a general malaise and disappointment that we've messed this world up so badly for the next few generations. And that so many people are too selfish to actually do something about it. I've got acquaintances and family on Facebook who are spouting the most ignorant Republican rhetoric, and I'm just done. I'm tired of the refusal to actually look at data. I'm tired of the conspiracy theories. Someone even started on about Holocaust denial today, and how we'll make a day out of anything any more (since Sunday was a remembrance day), and I just can't.

The world is a sucky place. It's a very good thing I've got a few days to get my head back together before rehearsals start. My play is sweet and uplifting but in my current mood, I'm going to turn it into a tragedy.