February 3rd, 2016

eurydice - delilah: prophcygrl

When music isn't so much fun

I have to play in a guitar recital on Friday night. Rehearsal is tomorrow night.

I am nowhere near ready. NOWHERE.

Truth is, I don't want to do it. But I've gotten out of all the other recitals, and my teacher specifically arranged everything around my availability this time. I can't say no to him again. He's a wonderful friend to me, and he's been absolutely amazing just being there for all my crap, so saying no to him yet again when it's really such a small thing he's asking of me feels selfish and uncalled for. He even told me that if I really wanted, I could not do the hardest of the three songs (or even unplug and pretend to play for it). He just wants me to be a part of it.

I even got granted extra time. We were originally scheduled for last Friday night, but the drummer/sound guy had a last minute conflict so we got an extra week to prepare.

My guitar is going to be glued to my hands tomorrow in a vain hope to try and not embarrass myself at rehearsal.