January 4th, 2016

merlin - arthur hopeful: sallyna_smile

Yep, it was a Monday

It was a day of downs and then a lovely up just when I thought I was going to lose it. I'm just feeling really overwhelmed by all the work ahead of me with these 80+ stories I have to rehome/republish, and then today's fandom challenge was to create a fanwork, and I pretty much lost it. All I wanted was to comfort eat, which only depressed me more because I put on five pounds over the holidays that doesn't want to start moving yet and I have to be stricter than ever. I was ready to pack it in and say screw it when I got notification that I had three stories become finalists in a writing competition, so that at least helped counter my feelings that I'm completely and utterly wasting my time putting any words to paper.

It's amazing that those feelings of insecurity never go away, regardless of how much you write.

But I went to the gym tonight, and I didn't actually eat the burger I wanted instead of our veggie soup, and tomorrow is another day and all that rigamarole, so I guess there are wins to be had.

And an early night. Man, I'm tired.