October 28th, 2011

btvs - spike write: sdwolfpup

Fic meme, Day Twenty-Two

Day 22 – Have you ever participated in a fest or a Big Bang? If so, write about your favorite experience in relation to one. If not, are there any you've thought about doing? And if not, why not?

Yes, too many to list. And they're all uber stressful, lol, so much so that I'm not sure I've got a favorite experience. The one that stands out the most might even be considered a fest. It was the William Fic Exchange I hosted years ago, because I wanted more William fic in the Buffyverse. I loved that for the creativity that was involved and for the huge influx of fic, of course, lol.

The one that intrigues me the most that I'm terrified about trying is yuletide. There's so much involvement that it's very overwhelming just to look at it. And most of the fandoms I've never even heard of, which is the point, I know. I *want* to try it, but I'm held back because I a) fear that I'll suck, b) don't even know what fandoms I'd offer since it takes a lot to even get me into a fic writing place for fandoms, and c) am put off by how complicated the whole thing looks like, and d) mentioned that fear thing, right? Because honestly, that's it. For all that I've done, every time I put a toe into new waters, I'm absolutely terrified. I loathe the unknown and being out of control. I'm the person who shows up half an hour early for events just so that I can scope out the place first as well as be the first to arrive, just so I'm not walking into a room full of strangers. So...I don't know if I'll ever come my fear to take this leap. Unless it's something I'm *dying* to do, I usually need somebody to spot me to get me going. If that makes sense, lol.

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eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

I'm a little bit tipsy

So...I've been really good foodwise. Rarely go over my calorie limit for the day (at this point, it's 1300 calories which you probably don't care about, but oh well, lol). Have lost nearly 33 pounds and am down to a size 12/14, which makes me all kinds of happy.

Well L surprised me today with sushi for lunch because Craig had to go into the office and forgo our usual Friday sushi lunch date. She stuck around and we watched the first 4 eps of S4 Buffy, at which point I didn't want to cook and suggested ordered wings (courtesy of seeing a tweet from sheswatching. We ran with that. After fries (god, the wing place near us has the BEST fries) and wings, I decided to hell with it and opted to drink tonight.

Two beers and two glasses of port later...

Bought a necklace online I'd talked myself out of twelve hours ago.

Have spent too much time looking through pics on my computer, reliving fandom memories (found the pic where I got the kiss from James, god, so many memories).

Have had impure thoughts about friends/acquaintances it would totally embarrass me to admit to if I was sober.

Spent far too long looking at this picture of Bradders and considering what it would be like to crawl between his legs and do unspeakable things.

Mentally plotted at least two fics involving Percival.

Mentally plotted inserting myself into at least one of those fics.

Had truly dangerous thoughts about Percival meeting Spike.