January 10th, 2006

eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

A Symphony of Echoes, ch. 58

The new chapter is also up at my site.

TITLE: A Symphony of Echoes
AUTHOR: Eurydice
RATING: NC17
DISCLAIMER: The characters are Joss’, of course, and the chapter title comes from Shakespeare’s “Sonnet I.”
PREVIOUSLY ON BUFFY: Robin crashed the Summers house only to alert them to the added problem of Esme; Esme got to Buffy, only to realize that she couldn’t wake her up, forcing her to get rid of the block; in the dream, Buffy felt the effects of Esme’s spell and Willow joined the Guardians in order to get the power boost she needed to wake Spike up, just to discover that he thinks the baby is dead…

WARNING: There is sensitive subject matter regarding an unborn child within this chapter. I will freely admit that I cried when writing out Spike's early reactions in this. As was indicated in the chapter previous, Esme has cast a very bad spell on the baby and that just doesn't go away. It has consequences. Those consequences are clarified in this chapter and could be disturbing to some. However, ultimately, this story is not a tragedy. I brought Willow back, didn't I? :) Still, some might choose to skip this chapter, and that's all right. The "previously" on the next chapter will explain what is necessary for the story to proceed without the emotional impact of having to read it directly. My sincerest apologies to anybody who might have read already and been very upset. This was never my intention. *hugs*

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It's been an unsettling day all around.

Craig left this morning. 4am. After only getting 4 hours sleep. I won't see him again until February 7. I'm trying to go on like everything is normal, but it's going to be tough. Alicia's already had one crying jag, and I'm sure there will be more to come. Meanwhile, I'm trying not to stare at my clock and wonder how lonely I'm going to be from the hours of 8-12 when he and I usually get our alone time.

I'm touchy as a result. Little things are setting me off. Alex refused to eat supper and is complaining about being hungry, but I refuse to fix him a second dinner when he picked out the first one. Random comments are annoying the fuck out of me when I know they shouldn't, and I'm having to self-edit a lot in order not to lose any friends. So my apologies to everyone here and now. Excuse the jumpy woman in the corner. She really doesn't mean to bite your head off.

On the plus side, I got an e-mail from Phaze Publishing saying that my short story/novella has passed the first round of their review process. According to their FAQ, it was read and reviewed by at least 2 editors, and based on their recommendations it's now been bumped up to the next step. I'd like to think they weed out much of the sludge with the first round of reviews. Fingers crossed they actually want it now. :)

I have a few more comments to respond to on the Echoes chapter, but I'll likely do that in the morning. I'm going to try and focus on writing the next one tonight. If I can immerse myself, maybe I won't think too much about Craig not being here.

*sigh*

I just have to be the one to die first in this relationship. I don't even want to think about how crazy I would be if I outlived him. :P