To my friends list:
My LJ is undergoing a change. If you're just here for fic updates, then great, this won't affect you. But I will no longer be posting anything of a personal nature here, and probably only the occasional post about the fandom. Well, I might still use it to vent, but those entries will be kept private, for my eyes only. Frankly, it's not worth the headaches it gives me; I honestly don't understand why anyone would take it upon themselves to judge me based solely on what I post here. None of it was ever meant in any way other than to possibly entertain you, or to ask for support when I needed it. But, obviously, that was too much for me to expect. So, I'm cutting myself off. Because I absolutely don't need that kind of negativity in my life, and I don't need to expose myself to people who think they know me but don't.
I had hoped that my post a few weeks ago about the delineations in my life would be enough, but it appears that it wasn't. You know, I am so, so very tempted to just walk away from the entire fandom. I'm itching to delete my journal entirely. I even considered deleting my websites today. There are some wonderful people out there, but there are also a select few whose opinionated, closed-minded, far-too-nasty attitudes are making my life hell. I do everything I can to try and give to other people without asking for too much in return, and OK, yeah, maybe I'm not emotionally accessible to every crisis that doesn't directly affect my life, but I try to compensate in other ways. But I won't be going in the near future. I have commitments that tie me to the fandom through the end of the year, and I won't abandon those (even though there are those out there who are of the opinion that I'm spreading myself too thin, and really, who are you to judge what I do and don't do with my time?).
I didn't mean to be quite so bitchy about this, but my patience is gone. I don't get it. I just don't.