tv - pretty (wes/fred): behindblue_eyes

The countdown is real

Only five more shifts at the library, woo hoo! Granted they're spread out over the next two weeks, but hey, the countdown is real.

Today was supposed to be productive, but in reality, not so much. My arthritis has been particularly bad since we got back from Napa, and the pain makes it hard to concentrate. I'm not sure what's causing this flare-up. The fact that my eating has been crap lately certainly isn't helping. I tried to get back on track with a gorgeous salad for dinner tonight, but then Alicia and her boyfriend came home a couple hours later when I was starting to get peckish. I should've been strong when they said they were going to McDonalds. I wasn't. A McFlurry and fries later...

At some point, I have to stop stalling and get back on it with tracking my food. And getting some exercise, even if it's just strength training. I keep making excuses, like the pain, or the time commitment, or the kids, but that has to stop at some point. Why is it I can be so disciplined about certain things, but when it comes to food and exercise, it all goes out the window?

Craig and I have been watching Westworld since the Napa trip and it was recommended to us. We didn't have HBO when it premiered, so it was one of those shows that slipped through the cracks. However, it's been a win for us so far. We're almost done with the second season. We probably would be done if I let Craig binge it the way he wants, but I just can't stay sitting on the couch for more than a couple episodes. I will say, though, that I don't think the second season is as good as the first was. It's a mind trip, that's for sure, and I appreciate a lot of what it seems to be trying to do, but some of the nonlinear storytelling just isn't done as coherently as it could be. I will say, however, that the show as a whole has sparked some long debates and conversations between me and Craig, more so than a show has done in a very long time. That's an excellent sign.
eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

Tons to catch up on

Maybe if I start posting on a Monday, I'll get back into the habit of posting here. I have no idea why this keeps sliding. It's not like my life is any crazier than normal.

So what's birthday was on the 14th. That was a good day. My celebration was over the weekend, though, when Craig and I went back to Napa with our best couple friends. Her birthday was the week after mine, so it seemed like a great way to celebrate. Tons of fun.

I'm also - FINALLY - officially a college student again. I'm all registered at the community college to get the one class I'm missing in order to qualify as a transfer student to the CSU I want to attend. It was pretty nightmarish there for a while. Their admissions department is absolutely useless. I applied at the same time there was a huge mail update, and I never received the email saying I was in and what to do next, along with my student ID number. In spite of numerous, varied attempts to get that information, nobody ever got back to me with it. I ended up getting it when someone from their registration outreach program called me to see if I had any questions or problems registering for my classes. She ended up sending me all the details I needed, thank goodness.

I ended up with the advanced composition class I need for the critical thinking credit (why my multiple comp or philosophy courses from the first time around don't count, I have no idea, since they seem to be exactly what they want me to take now). I opted to take four classes in total to help get back into the habit of being in school. The other three are a website development class (I already know HTML, but I really need to redesign my sites and this should give me some solid CSS knowledge, too), introduction to criminal justice (to see if it's something I want to pursue at the CSU), and introduction to archaeology (just for funzies). I wanted to take a photoshop class for funzies, but it already had a waitlist by the time I could actually register. Since I had a list of twenty potential classes to take, I decided not to bother with the waitlist and just go to the next one I wanted to do just for fun.

And now I wait. All of the classes are online and start on August 23. I was supposed to stop working at the library on July 30, but my manager asked if I could work a few days in the beginning of August because she took her vacation at the beginning of July and hasn't had the chance to do any interviewing yet. Ironically, I got a raise on July 1 that she's put into motion before I turned my notice in. I found out about that last week. It's so funny because it keeps seeming like the universe is throwing incentives at me to stay at the library. What does it know that I don't, lol?

In the meantime, with Covid on the rise again, I've decided not to audition for 12 Angry Jurors (an updated version of 12 Angry Men) that our community theatre is doing. There's nothing else this season I'd be able to audition for, but oh well. I'll have school to keep me busy.

I made an appointment to see my ENT about my allergy symptoms, just to rule out anything serious. He confirmed, it's just a godawful allergy season, and my deviated septum is exacerbating my symptoms. He gave me a prescription antihistamine to use when it's really bad, which has been helping. On the bright side, he also said that my throat has healed quite a bit from all the changes I've made to fight my reflux. So that's good at least.

And I think that's just about it. I'm making no promises about getting back onto a schedule with posting, but I sure as hell am going to try.
izombie - ravi: etherealnetwork

Going dairy free

With all the stupid crap that's happening in my body right now - inflammation is up, seasonal allergies through the roof - I've decided to try going dairy-free to see if that helps at all. I know the link between dairy and mucus is a myth, but it does increase inflammation if you have a sensitivity to it (which I do but ignore because of how much I love dairy). It really can't hurt at this point to give it a go for a few weeks to see if it helps. So back to my herbal and green tea, and goodbye to ice-cream (which my scale will most definitely appreciate).
eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

College plans progress

Oh, look I did it again. *headthunk*

The past 10 days have been busy and productive. Turns out, I'm missing a single class to qualify as a transfer student at the CSU I want to attend, so I'll be taking that along with a few others at the local community college this fall. I'm going to apply to the CSU in August and ask for an exception to be made to allow me to start there in January. The advisor I spoke to suggested it, saying I was an excellent candidate for the exception. She was helpful all around, frankly, and really lit a fire under me even more than there was. I have to take all online classes at the community college, though, because they start on the 23rd and Craig and I already have our flights to DC for the 27th. I don't want to miss classes at the very beginning of my journey back, lol.

The class I'm missing is a critical thinking class, and I have two real options for that, one of which is a philosophy course. Not my favorite as I hated philosophy back in the day, but if that's what it takes, I'll do it. I'm also going to take a science to get that credit out of the way, a photoshop class for funzies, and then 1 or 2 other classes that I haven't decided on yet.

The countdown has begun on my time at the library, but bonus for me, my manager is on vacation until the 14th, so I get half the month without her, woo hoo! The library opened up hiring in the county for the two positions above me that I qualify for, but I held strong and didn't apply. School is coming first. If I still want to go back to the library when it's all over, I can apply then. But who knows, I might not even be in this part of the state when that happens. Anything can happen before then, so I'm just going to have an open mind about it all.
eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

Finally did it

Well, I did it. Yesterday, I gave my notice at the library. I'm going to work through July to give her time to at least get mostly through the hiring process of finding a replacement, but then I am out of there.

At the end of the day, it was both easy and hard to do. Easy, because I'm done with my manager and my frustrations about the mistakes my fellow aides are making (that I'm then forced to correct when I find) have been growing like crazy. Hard, because I love the library and everybody else who works there. Libraries have always been my safe space. Part of me is going to ache from missing it.

But it's the best choice for me, and I know it. I need to take 10 days off in August anyway to take Alicia back to school in DC, so now I won't have to ask for it. Plus, my mental health will improve. And regardless of whether I start school in the fall or the winter, I'll have time to get ready. The library was good about giving me back some of my confidence, and now it's time for the next step in my life.

I'm so excited about where it'll all go next. :)
text - chapter: munkymp3

I remember when the library was fun...

It's getting harder and harder to go into work at the library. Now that I can see going back to school in my future, I just want it to start now. As it is, I think I'm going to put in my resignation at the beginning of July to work through the month so I'm out as of August. That way, I don't have to worry about a week off to take Alicia to DC for school. And I can be done with my manager for good. As Craig told me today, I could go in as a patron and help anybody who wanted help finding books without having to worry about overstepping bounds, I can organize shelves at my leisure since it's fully within my rights to browse, and I can leave as soon as someone (my manager) makes me uncomfortable. It's not like I took the job for the money.

Plus, the new couch has kind of inspired my muse. If I'm not working, I'll have more energy to write.
mood - oooo: wisteria

Oooo, shiny

The next step in our new game/media room set-up arrived today. There's a big blank wall in front of the new couch, so Craig decided he wanted a bigass TV mounted there so we could watch movies and play games on it. He got an 85" with so many acronyms I have no idea what they are. All I know is that a) it's huge, and b) the picture is crazy sharp, and c) we don't have to hook anything into it except the PS and Xbox. Everything else comes through apps on the TV, including our DVR in the family room. It's not mounted yet, but it will be on either Saturday or Sunday when the mounting kit arrives.

I foresee a ton of time spent in this room in the future.
eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

A long and lazy Sunday

Lazy day. Alicia's BF spent the night, so they went out and got us brunch. Then we played Villainous after we ate, until his mom texted and guilted him into going home early to help her build something. Craig and I curled up on the couch after that to watch mindless movies (a rewatch of Edge of Tomorrow and then My Spy), and now I'm sprawled on the chaise of the new sectional, on my computer for the first time all day, trying to stay awake. I shouldn't. I should go to bed. It's not like I can't use the sleep. But tomorrow has a ton of errands that need to be done, including packages to be shipped and grocery shopping, not to mention finishing the laundry that I was lazy about today, and part of me wants to put it off by making today last as long as it can. Yes, I know that's silly logic. I mentioned I was tired, right, lol?

I've spent way too much money in the past two days. I renewed our SHN membership for 2021/22, since things are finally opening up again and live theater is coming back. I then went and purchased tickets for all of us to see Hamilton again in August before Alicia has to go back to DC for her last year of college. Then, I bought tickets for our local theatre company's production of Company that will be performing at the end of the month. Oh, and then Craig went out yesterday and bought a new TV to replace the one in the media/game room, along with a soundbar and speakers for a better sound experience. Those arrive on Wednesday. The goal is to spend more time up in the game/media room. We're not going to get the cable extended to the upstairs, so the family room will still be where we watch stuff on the DVR, but movies, streaming, and games will all be in the media room. It'll be even better once the kids go back to school because they won't be here to leave all their crap around. Alicia is notorious for burying the game table by never putting stuff away - which it is now since they didn't bother putting away all their Magic the Gathering stuff from last night - so I'm looking forward to losing that element. My house will be so much cleaner once they're gone. I'll miss them, but hey, I'm looking for bright spots in their absences as much as I can, lol.
eurydice james: pepperlandgirl4

I really need to not fall off the grid again

Well, hell, I fell off the grid again. I didn't mean to. But we went to Napa, and then I came home and felt like crap, and then things got busy, and...I fell off the grid. Let's try to get back on.

I sent for my college transcript and got it this week, so I could finally make an appointment with the nearby CSU for pre-admission counseling. I'm way too excited about going back to college and finally finishing my Bachelor's. It was a little rough seeing my transcript, though. I got all sad about having the visual reminder of what a downturn my life took after my abusive ex entered it.

But that's all done and gone, and this is about moving on. At this point, I need to decide if I want to do something completely online or something more hybrid with the occasional class on campus. Both Craig and my mom warned me about how I'll stand out, being an older student, which I typically hate. I'm the kind of person who prefers to blend into the background, so they have a point, but I'm not convinced it'll be so bad about classes. I'm not sure I'll have a problem with the occasional in-person class. It's not like I'm ashamed of my past or anything. And I'm not stupid so I'm not nervous about that aspect. And according to Alicia's boyfriend, it's not like I'm out of touch with young people right now, which I took as a compliment. Mobility might be an issue if I have to walk far, though. At least one of the majors that interests me (biological sciences with a forensic science concentration) requires a ton of time on campus. On the other hand, I can do criminal justice and sociology as hybrids. I was headed toward an English major before, but I'm not sure I'm flexible enough now to finish that. I have very definitive likes and dislikes, and I'm less willing to bullshit my way through literature and writing classes that bore/annoy/piss me off. I don't want to set myself up for failure from the start. If I choose to go completely online, the options I like are hospitality and tourism management with an emphasis on event planning (which I would be AMAZING at) and human development with a concentration in adult development and gerontology.

But like I said. We'll see. My appointment is in two weeks, and I'll have more answers then. Right now, I'll keep looking through courses and drooling about the possibilities.

In other news, our new couch arrived last night!

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btvs - spike write: sdwolfpup

About writing

Dreaming and writing are Adam and Eve of the same process. Long before one ever writes a story…one works a story. You have ideas; and they stay there in your barely conscious mind; and you work them over. You masticate them like a puppy with a Christmas slipper until­ — finally — out comes a story. A significant part of that birthing process is informed by the dreaming. So the dreaming and the writing: elements of the same manufacture.

— Harlan Ellison